Pain......

I can't escape the thoughts of him, he's always there... 

Consuming me, my heart locked in his hands; crushing...

Drawn to him, by forces I can't control, let alone escape. 

Addicted;  like a drug, numbing my senses... 

Sleepless nights, dreams of him in the shadows......

Elusive; gone now. Out of my grasp........pain shoots through me...

Day into night, night to day, it's all encompassing......dying

slicing, cut after cut, until I am dead. 

Feeling no more; thoughts scatter..... he is gone, yet still here. 

Pieces of memories....scattered and torn

Memories.......torn, scattered, across the floor of life......... shredded pieces of paper, pictures..... 

faces; fading with the years....shadows in my mind

Seems like yesterday, the importance and significance of people who I cared for... gone now... 

all of it meaning nothing, and something at the same time... but what.... 

Where did this take me, where am I going now.... what did it all mean. Pain so deep, the cut of a knife would be easier.... 

Another day, hour, minuet; slides by slowly, slicing in no particular direction. Crossing and re-crossing... until numbness sets in... 

No longer caring... how does that happen? How does one have a feeling, and then loose it... like it was meaningless.... 

torn and shattered..... bleeding, until you are bleed dry.... 

New roads....untraveled.... let the old ones go. 

Moment

Our life is a moment, a series of moments on a journey to the end.....

let them go, let them all go.....

our life is a series of moments, moments, all gathering, towards this one......

clinging to me, like home to me, I don't recognize this street...

don't close your eyes...

I know you care, I know it has always been there....

I see it in the way that you stare....

as if there were trouble ahead and you knew it...

two lovers locked out of love....

you were are just saving yourself when you hide it.....

I will be saving myself from the ruin...

I've never known winter so cold.....

but I still hope, why can't I dream.... because I still know that you care....

moments, life is just moments, all gathering towards this one...

not letting go, don't want to get past this, all these moments....

loving from the outside... moments....